Bryon's treatment's continue as usual. There have been no physical complications with the chemo or his new port. He struggles to keep up with work since several of his co-workers have been ill and no one is available to come in for him. He is also finding it difficult to accept that he is still recovering form his surgery. The speech and physical abilities are coming back steadily and we are very happy with his progress, but Bryon seems dissatisfied. Like anyone else, he wants to be better, or at least be more like himself before the surgery. He struggles daily with the knowledge he has a terminal illness and he can't ever escape the little reminders. Everything is planned around his treatments, how he might be feeling, or whether the tumor grows back in a different place. It is all about the tumor, not about Bryon anymore. No matter what the treatment does for him, I feel the loss of control over his own life is slowly draining his ability to function. We encourage him to get out and go fishing or have time for himself doing what he wants, but that rarely works out for him.
I would encourage anyone who is up for a day of fishing they would feel free to invite Bryon to get out with them and throw a line in. A four wheeler ride, or a drive up the canyon would do him some major good. He loves his family, but being with them all the time is not really the best medicine. He needs a manly moment, and possibly a vacation from EVERYTHING.
If Bryon seriously wants to go fishing I can hook him up. Scott has a little boat that he drags up to either Deep Creek or Devil's Creek a couple of times a month. He's always looking for someone to go with him, but ends up going alone 80% of the time. I asked him if he'd stop and pick up Bryon, and he said he'd be happy to. He's going tomorrow, but I know you usually have treatments on Mondays. Let me know Bryon's schedule, and we'll see what we can do. Scott usually goes on Saturdays in the mornings, and fishes for 3 or 4 hours, and is home by mid-afternoon.
ReplyDeleteMy trials seem so small so when I think of your sweet hubby's, but I know how hard it is to forget them. My friend has a FABULOUS blog, http://thebruggerbunch.blogspot.com/ She reminds us daily of all the miracles of life while living with a terminal illness.
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